It’s hard not to have hot water. Luke warm at best, I want it scalding. I need the burn. Looking red and feeling raw and almost out of breath by the time I step out, left palm gripping the vanity to steady myself. Eyes close as a brown out comes, goes. Throbbing pruned fingers further distort a condensation screened face. Hate what I see, but at least I feel something.

MAJE Hybrides silk-chiffon blouse - $290

GUCCI Knickerbocker wool-blend jacket - $1,395

ELIZABETH AND JAMES Trish crystal-embellished brushed-twill dress - $395

ACNE Track leather ankle boots - $660

MIU MIU Hooded wool duffel coat - $2,235

TOTAL: $4,975